Sacrificing sleep for work. No greater form of torture, eh?

Well, I must admit, I'm a bit apathetic about writing this since it's both required and I'm exhausted, but I might as well do it. I was asked to answer how blogging could make me feel more powerful, and I have a decent enough answer. Blogging allows me to express myself; my opinions, my feelings, my stories, and what-not. It allows me to tell others who I am, what I believe in, and how I choose to believe in it, and only I can choose how to blog it

It's a way to express individuality and creativity, all in one. Blogging has changed how we interact throughout the world. Instead of relying only on books and newspapers to read about certain people, we can just read anyone's blog and instantly learn a story or find someone who agrees, or disagrees, with what you stand for. It gives us the ability to be us in a whole new way, and it's certainly going to be used more often in the coming years for some very important things. Blogging and social networking sites have changed our very way of living, and it's only a matter of time before we're all involved.

There. Are you happy, Mr. Haggar? I have written a very thought-out post, and now I will go to bed, since I've wrote enough damn evals for one night. Goodnight, and don't let the frostbite

Guess what? I made a post that wasn't required

I felt like posting something out of both boredom and the fact that I'm starting to enjoy this. If people keep reading, I'll keep posting. I felt like talking about two albums that shaped my entire childhood

Korn: Follow the Leader
This album was available to me thanks to my sister, as Nu Metal was a big thing in my house. I found it randomly while messing around the media player on our computer, and I was instantly hooked. I really liked the sinister and somewhat-creepy tones and topics covered in the songs and present in the music, and it really influenced me as a musician. It's easily one of my most favorite albums.

System of a Down: Toxicity
This album introduced me to metal in general, and taught me that you can mix heavy material with complex and layered instrumentals. I also used to practice my singing to it, although I favored Korn's vocals for practicing. This album came to me from a group of CDs I came across from an old friend of mine when he was clearing out his collection. From then on, I was in love with metal

I guarantee that, while you're reading this, you're waiting for something

Quite an interesting post you guys are in for. This is supposed to be my last entree that is required, but who knows? Maybe this will be the blog I decide to keep. Only one way to find out, I guess. Let's rock this shit.
I'll put up a link to a song that was my favorite from ages 9-14:
Got The Life- Korn
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=emNahB_96JY

So, I guess I should mention my mental state at the moment. It's a mix of stress and worry, I guess you could say. Made a huge mistake in my relationship, and although all is forgiven and I am respected and trusted more for confessing, I still feel a decent feeling of guilt and shame. Will it ever go away? Hard to say. Only time will tell, I suppose. It could just be my anxiety and depression teaming up and fucking with my head. It wouldn't be the first time...

At least I have a concert to go to tomorrow. My best friend and I are seeing one of our favorite rap groups, Twiztid, tomorrow at First Ave., and I'm having mixed feelings towards it. He is upset with me over the forementioned situation, and my usual way of dealing with it is to let him get over it, but I worry that it won't be enough. I feel like I'm just whining, but this shit really bugs me. At least I can try to pretend to be happy at school and have people unknowingly comfort me with their jests and jokes and such. Sometimes, I feel like I'm only home with my girlfriend's family or at my school.
Pic related: It's Twiztid

At least I'm not who I was before, school and home-wise. I used to be disrespectful, lazy, ignorant, and apathetic jerk who just abused people's sympathies for my own gain. I honestly didn't care for myself, and I can admit that I've had less than pleasant thoughts about my future, but that's over now. I like who I am now, and the people I spend time with are good people. I mean, I hope they are.

This is it for the last part of this post. I pretty much AM going to post more often. This amuses me a decent amount, and who knows, maybe this will make someone happy someday, or at least, let them know that they aren't alone. You aren't, by the way. Trust me. I know shit

I'm a total bullshitter. I'm just painfully honest as well. It balances itself out

I've decided to start out this project by just writing poems I've thought up on the spot. It's kind of a way to see if you're actually interested in the kind of nonsense I put up. Don't like it, deal with it, I guess

Blood curdling
Sweat dropping
Tension rising
Bodies flopping


Vocals blaring
Guitars flaring
Drums ensnaring
Lyrics daring


Crowds chanting
Singer panting
Perception slanting
Opinion recanting


Friendships grow
Injustices known
Learning to say no
Punk rock show


Thank you. I feel confident in that particular one. Until I think of something new to write, I'll just doodle phallic objects and giggle. Take THAT, teacher of mine

This is going to blow your mind, no foolin'

    Considering this is my third attempt at making this, I am learning to choose a direction and stick with it, despite my habits to drift off. I originally decided to make this into a philosophical blog, containing all of my theories about life, yet that did not work as well as I hoped. I am now deciding to use this to put up whatever the hell I want to. I am defying my own choices to complete this. Take that, me.

    I am planning to use this to cover my random ideas and thoughts, and it will include advice, various tech support, random poems and lyrics, and my own experiences in life. Now that I am committed to doing this, I am finding more and more enthusiasm in continuing this long after the project is complete and the Interim is finished. However, considering that I have the attention span of a ferret in a Coca-cola factory, I somewhat doubt I will accomplish that. Here's to hope.

Also, here's a fun video: